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Dear Fat Fuck,




Jesus! I knew that when I started this blog that I could not assume everyone would love it. I knew I would have some haters. But here’s the thing, that’s okay, because I can take it. Trust me, I deal with much bigger problems than a few people who “dislike my blog.”

I started writing this blog with the intention of mostly talking about interior decorating but it has evolved into more than that. You may think that I am completely forthcoming with all that I talk about with this blog but I am not, at least not all at once. I tried to keep this blog light and lighthearted even if we talk about some deep subjects. However, there is so much that you don’t know. I intend to be an open book because that’s how I live my life. I do not have secrets and I tell everybody everything. It is not my intention to be Debbie Downer or exude a “woe is me attitude.” That is not who I am. I wake up happy and try to see the joy and beauty in every day. Of course, there is extreme ugliness with my disease that I spare you from. Why would you want to hear all of that? However, I will not spare anyone from it when I write my book. You can either choose to read it or not. But, today is different… Today is going to be ugly. I’m going to tell you some things that will make your jaw drop, I am going to call one person in particular a fat fuck about 400 times, and the unfortunate part of my disease will be exposed a little bit. If you want to quit reading, be my guest, because today I am going to be a total b*tch. However, I will be truthful. Tomorrow’s blog will go back to normal and we will talk about spaghetti carbonara and lasagna but today… Not so much.

I was reading a wonderful blog last night called The Gardener’s Cottage. It’s a really great blog and y’all should check it out. The author of the blog wrote a really sweet blog posting about me and I was going to the comments section so I could write something back to her and thank her for all of her kind words. I started to read all of the other comments that people had written about me… Really thoughtful, loving, supportive, endearing comments… Until there were about 10 comments from readers who basically hated me. Here’s the good news… I don’t care. Here’s the bad news… I do care.

Apparently, some of these readers (and the rudest one posted anonymously, of course) are miffed about my donation page on my blog. Let me give you a few examples of some of their grievances with my donation page…

The first one…(Posted on The Gardener’s Cottage blog)
  1. AnonymousDecember 12, 2014 at 2:18 AM
I read Ellie's blog (or, about 80% of it) based your recommendation. Unfortunately, my reaction was not the same as yours. I did appreciate and love her writings that were more vulnerable -- about ALS, her daughter, etc. It's a service to write about diseases like this, because there is no better resource for others who suffer with ALS and those who support them. That's where my affection for the author ended. I found her painfully snobby and snooty. I can't imagine hanging out with her if I were from a lower economic class or a "lesser" culture, lest I cause her offense. And perhaps worst of all, I was so put off by the "donations" link and page. The donation website practically begged for money and gave the impression that she couldn't afford her expensive medical treatments. The world is full of people who can't afford ANY medical treatment and who die in a shack in Liberia (or some other poor country) of Ebola or ALS or something else. And the world is full of people who get minimal medical care in countries like America that don't guarantee healthcare for all. Yet this author asks for "donations while she:
- buys Napoleon's wallpaper at the auction of the century
- writes about her troves of high-end luxury clothing
- writes about her antique furniture that could cost more than a car
- routinely eats at some of the most expensive restaurants in the world
- lives in a country with mostly free medical care
- has more comprehensive medical care and attendants than the other few people I know struggling with ALS in the US.

Swear to God, this is the exact comment I read about myself tonight. So, I am not of the school of thought to ignore things and they will eventually go away. No, no, no, I like to charge full steam ahead and open this can of worms and confront these misconceptions. And then, I like to get really dirty and vindictive and call the person a fat fuck. But, back to my point. I think it’s important to open this dialogue… And discuss it. So here we go… Yes, I do have a donation page. If this reader knew anything about ALS then she or he would know that ALS is the most expensive disease on earth.. I was not lucky enough to get a disease that has a slight fighting chance of survival. No, you fat fuck, I was unlucky enough to get a disease that has rendered me completely useless and unable to do one single solitary thing for myself with no cure, no hope, and an 80% chance that I will die this year. No one has ever survived ALS. So, seeing as though your comprehension is at a fourth grade level, let me break it down some more for you.

I cannot breathe on my own so I need a 24 hour breathing machine: $1200 per month.
My diaphragm pacing surgery cost almost $110,000.
My emergency feeding tube surgery in Paris was €5000.
My feeding tube formula costs $300 for 24 packets plus $200 to ship via FedEx to France.
My ALS medicine, Rilutek, costs $1200 per month.
My motorized wheelchair cost $20,000.
My regular wheelchair cost $1400.
My caregivers cost $5000 per month. Sometimes more.
I have a specialized computer and a specialized voice recognition software, it ain’t cheap.
Massage therapy, vitamin drips, hyperbaric chambers, infrared saunas, acupuncture, vitamin supplements and physical therapy ain’t cheap either.

This is just the tip of the iceberg of my ALS related expenses. It is a struggle every day to pay for everything on top of just living normally. I just happen to write my blog about all the good stuff in my life… Not all of the bad stuff… So maybe that’s where you got confused, you fat fuck.

Now, let me explain a few more things to you Madame Anonymous… You ever so lovingly called me “snobby and snooty.” However, just because I like an 18th-century French gilt mirror, that does not automatically make me a snob. It means I have really good taste and you don’t. Such is life, don’t sweat it so much. You need to be you and let me be me. By the way, your insecurities are shining through.

Let’s discuss your statement about “having Ebola and other people who die of ALS from lack of medical care.” First of all, I would love to have Ebola… It’s treatable. ALS is not. Secondly, you don’t die of ALS from a lack of medical care. You die from ALS because there is no cure, regardless of how much medical care you have. I could have all the expensive medical care in the world and it isn’t going to save me from ALS.

Regarding my Napoleon wallpaper… First of all it was not the “auction of the century.” I’m pretty sure there was a Francis Bacon auction that was slightly more lucrative, you fat fuck. Secondly, the starting bid for the wallpaper was €150. The final bid was €1000. That is not a jaw dropping, record-breaking sale. You have obviously confused my enthusiasm. My enthusiasm was directed at the historical component of the wallpaper, not the price. And by the way, it was my Christmas present for what is most likely my last Christmas. I also wanted to pass down something meaningful to my daughter.

Let me address your other sweet compliments… I do not have “troves of high-end clothing” as you suggested. I happen to only purchase clothing that has quality… Not quantity. Again, just because I have good taste does not make me a bad person. My cashmere sweaters have a message for you… Go fuck yourself.

You ever so lovingly said that I “routinely eat at some of the most expensive restaurants in the world.” I am laughing at this because I wish I could go out to dinner “routinely.” However, you fat fuck, I only go out to dinner for the very most special occasions. Obviously unbeknownst to you, people with ALS have an extremely hard time swallowing. So, for me, going to a restaurant is basically for ambience alone. I can only take a few bites of food or otherwise I will choke and die, you fat fuck. I am mostly fed through a tube in my stomach. Do you regret what you said now? You should. I am laughing because I am envisioning you sitting at your desk writing these horrible comments to a stranger as you are most likely cramming Dunkin’ Donuts down your classless throat. However, let me state for the record that I love Dunkin’ Donuts.

Next up… Health insurance. You mentioned that “the world is full of people who get minimal healthcare in America and healthcare is sometimes not guaranteed at all.” Well guess what, I am one of those people. My insurance was canceled and after I tried to reapply I was refused healthcare because of my little “pre-existing condition called ALS.” I have only started receiving French healthcare last month as it has taken us 1½ years to get through all the French bureaucracy, not that it is any of your business.

A few other comments suggested that I had no class for having a donation page. Well, let me tell you something… I have more class in my paralyzed little pinky finger than you do in your entire body, you fat fuck. You know why I have class? Because I have never once mentioned on my blog that no one, and I mean no one in my family has ever helped me financially with my ALS expenses. Not my mother, not my father, not my sister, not my aunt Anne or my cousin Julie. These were the people closest to me and these were the people who completely abandoned me. My husband David has paid for every single expense for my ALS. I have a few friends who have helped and for that I am thankful but the bulk of the weight is on my husband. I cannot work, I cannot earn an income and every day I cost more and more. On top of all of this, I have a daughter to support. Just because I have led (past tense) a privileged lifestyle compared to yours does not mean that my current situation is a walk in the park.

I do not live a lavish lifestyle. I just happen to have excellent taste. I have the same four walls that you do, I just choose to make mine pretty. And by the way, no, we would never be friends, as you say, because I would never be friends with someone who writes misinformed rude comments anonymously on someone’s blog.

Here’s a few things you don’t know about me, you fat fuck… I am always for the underdog. I give more than I take. I say a pray every single night for those less fortunate than me. I have spent every last nickel that I have on Gracie’s education. Before I got sick, I always worked at my jobs proudly. Some of my friends are rich, some are super rich, some are middle-class and some are broke. I like them all equally. I choose my friends based on their character not their pocketbooks. My friends come in all shapes, colors, sizes, socioeconomic classes, cultures, religions and backgrounds and I feel honored to be loved by them all. I am the furthest thing from a snob. My idea of the perfect day is taking the subway to the flea market, finding a bargain, eating a Moroccan sausage, smoking a cigarette and laughing hysterically with all my friends. It physically hurts my heart that I cannot respond to all of the kind emails that I get. I am constantly worried and tell my husband that I don’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings by my inability to write letters to each one of my readers who write me kind emails offering prayers. My friends know this about me and will defend my character ferociously. I go “without” every day… I just don’t complain about it. Yes, I said in my blog that my husband brings me a present every day. That present is most likely a jelly donut. You are very confused as to what I value in life and have obviously mistaken who I am. I value Gracie and David,  my friends, my pets and way down on the totem pole yes, I value my beautiful antique furniture. You know why? Because I spent years studying the history of furniture and yes, the Louvre and I see the importance of antiquities, you fat fuck. A donation page was set up for me, not by me, and I have never asked you for a donation. Trust me, if I didn’t have ALS I would be wallpapering my dining room in Zuber, instead of paying strangers to take care of me. I do not choose to live in Paris. My husband works here. If I had my choice I would be in a cottage by the sea tending to my roses and ignoring fat fucks like you.

So, Madame Anonymous, next time you want to judge someone like you judged me today… Here’s a little advice. First of all, state your real name and don’t hide behind “anonymous.” If I have enough courage to write this blog as honestly as I do, I expect the same transparency from you, you fat fuck. Secondly, before you judge someone, do a little research so you are at least somewhat intelligent about your topic. Lastly, walk a day in my shoes. I dare you, you fat fuck. Live a day not able to hug your daughter, live a day wondering if it is your last, live a day unable to move one inch below your neck, live a day having to have someone carry you to the bathroom, live a day with panic attacks so bad that you think you’re having a heart attack and have to be medicated, live a day having to gasp for every breath, live a day with nurses having to give you a bath, live a day without your dignity, live a day without your independence, live a day wondering why you got the worst disease on earth. Until then, you fat fuck, I suggest you try to find the good in your own life, live every day with joy and laughter, find some peace and solace, be kind to others and refrain from writing poisonous words to strangers, you fat fuck. Love, Ellie


153 comments:

  1. I found you blog through The Gardener's Cottage, which I adore. And now I adore your blog as well.
    As people will say to me 'sooo, tell me how you really fell about that' your point is clear.

    Fight on. And keep writing. I see the world differently through your words.

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  2. Ellie,
    I literally love the person you are!!! Your honesty and love of life come thru in every blog!! You motivate me to be a better person. Thank you for being you!!!

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  3. i wish i could get on a plane, break down your front door and hug you. your cashmere sweaters said it all. xo

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  4. Absolute Perfection
    But then I expected nothing less from you!
    Wishing you continued Health and Happiness in 2015
    Louise Simon ( Durban, South Africa)

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  5. Dearest Ellie,

    You are teaching us how to live a life of beauty and grace in the midst of real suffering. To celebrate and love. Thank you for sharing your insights and stories--the happy and heartbreaking. We love you for all of it.

    Of course, this woman's comments are only a reflection of her own unhappiness. She owns it. As Buddha said, "if a man offers you a gift, and you accept it not, to whom does it belong?" Let her keep her ugliness.

    You continue in our prayers.

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  6. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    I don't even know how to write an appropriate comment to how much I am elated and entertained by this post. There is such an "us and them" attitude in America right now and it's toxic and counterproductive. I think the absolute beauty and heartache of your blog is that you remind us money can't fix every problem. It's easy to think "if I only had $..."
    I just don't understand what people get out of being like that. I am such a snarky asshole, but I don't think I've ever felt the temptation to antagonize someone and not even be able to get credit for it by hiding my identity.
    For the record, your nonchalance about luxury is my favorite thing about you. It's just stuff. Beautiful stuff.
    Maybe the fat fuck is just feeling cornered with all the New Years weight loss commercials. I know I am.

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    1. I'll second this comment!!!

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    2. You had me a "who gives a shit?" brilliant response on the gardener's cottage!

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  7. Dear Ellie,

    You made me giggle like Anderson Cooper :) Ya snooty snob *insert HUGE smile here*. I absolutely love your blog, and I am so glad that I found *you*. You're amazing !

    Bonnie

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  8. Ellie - Sitting here with my morning cup of coffee reading/re-reading your blog. I so wish I knew you in person. I think we would laugh until we were exhausted - your honesty and wit are amazing. YOU are amazing. I don't KNOW you but I so feel like I do. Thank you for absolutely just being the person you are and letting Ms.Fat Fuck feel your anger at her lack of knowledge and ....total lack of.... everything. I've responded several times to posts that you have done and something about me ....I never have figured out how NOT to post ANON...but always sign my name Pam Atk (my last name is Atkinson)...I haven't figured it out because I don't want to- I'm lazy with things techy because I want to be. Please know this also....since I've been reading your blog for about 6 months now. I have prayed for you and thought about you and wondered at your ability to write this blog so eloquently. Much love to you today - Pam Atk

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  9. Well said! There are many trolls out there in the blogosphere and most blog writers have had a negative rant by some anonymous commenter....they all have the same tone of unhappiness and insecurity behind them.
    You have addressed this insipid and unkind commenter with truth and honesty and I think you have been successful in your retort.
    well done!

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  10. You are hilarious! I wish I could get schlockered on good french champagne with you and hear more stories. Money is dirty business- but it doesn't make a life. Please do not waste another moment on grumpy trolls. More about bunny! Raw lamb on turkey! Making out with HGTV Chef's siblings! Ring in your new year, lovely lady. Ring it from your Parisian rooftop.

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  11. I love reading your posts and admire all that you do and are ... Brava for calling out that spineless Fat Fuck :). People like that are classless and without any dignity.
    You are in my prayers everyday,
    Nathalie

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  12. So well stated! Love you and your spirit!!!! I added you to my prayer list weeks ago when I first found you...you'll remain there along with Gracie. May God give her strength. I know because I cared for my husband who suffered from a disease that finally killed him after killing every last fiber in my soul. Slowly rebuilding.

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  13. Right on! Bravo! Yours is not the first blog I've read where the author has had to deal with hateful comments, almost always from an anonymous poster, but it never ceases to amaze me that there are people in this world who take the time to spew mean things like that at another human being! What a sad life those type of people must lead? Anyway, onward and upward! You're a good role model for your daughter standing up for yourself! Your attitude and fight should help your health! Looking forward to your column tomorrow.

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  14. Recently discovered your blog and love it. I will be thinking of you daily. And thanks for making me laugh!

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  15. I love you....

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  16. Bravo Ellie!

    Fat Fuck = Ignorant Haters=Jealousy

    Ditto Kristen Katz and do not waste another moment on these "grumpy trolls." Thank you for your blog, your honesty, wit, and wisdom. Looking forward to many, many, future posts on life, love, cooking, and whatever subjects you will share with us.

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  17. Dear Ellie,

    WORD

    Enjoy every donut

    Take care,

    Corinne

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  18. Dear Ellie,
    I love your writing. I would love to read a book by you.

    I'm sorry someone so without perspective or empathy hurt you. There's so much judging on the Internet, when as your post makes clear, we always only know one fraction of the story of someone's life. I think those hurtful words are mostly a failure of the imagination. What would it be like if I were in that position? What is important? Why is this situation bringing out a reaction in me? Why does this push my buttons? We have so much to learn about ourselves when someone is brave enough to let us have a peek into her life.

    I'm grateful you share what you do because you write from a deeply honest place. You speak the raw, painful, beautiful truth of that razor's edge we all live on. But only now and then. Mostly you talk about what is pleasing to the eye and how it soothes and comforts the soul in its beauty. Your words and pictures have soothed and comforted me. Thank you for your words and pictures.
    Yours truly,
    Kristen

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  19. OKAY< Now that YOU have addressed that IDIOT.............I hope you can sleep!I had NO IDEA you had a donation page!!!!I will chat with the ITALIAN HUSBAND tonight and hopefully make a small token donation in the next few days!!YOU did a BRILLIANT JOB of setting this IDIOT in her place..........I AM VERY PROUD OF YOU!VERY............Now if any of you want to chat with a READER who has met the LOVELY ELEANOR in person in HER PARISIAN APARTMENT with her gorgeous CAT please email me..........I can tell YOU what a delightful woman she TRUELY IS!My email: iolacontessa@gmail.com.XOXO

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  20. "it's not what people think but what God knows."
    I love your honesty, wit & impeccable taste. Fuck the haters.

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  21. A few months ago someone posted this quote online: Stop comparing your behind-the-scenes with everyone else's highlight reel. When I read your blog I know that you're posting the highlights (as well as some lowlights) and that you've got a lot of serious shit happening behind the scenes...a lot of which you write about. I can't imagine living with ALS, but you've done so gracefully and with humor. Keep up the sass and continue to expand your cashmere collection one stolen sweater from your husband at a time.

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  22. Ellie -
    Well said, well said.

    Barbara

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  23. yesterday I was bitching about cleaning & I thought about you. I started cleaning & said "Thank You" about one billion times! I found your blog thru the gardener's cottage. your blog has opened my eyes & has reminded me to be grateful. Thank You Ellie! Ruby W.

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  24. Ellie it is such a pleasure to know youthanks to my daughter who laid in the bed with you last week and you called her Linda. You are an absolute riot and funny girl you!

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  25. Touche!!!! Love every word of your post, especially the "you fat fuck!". Ha ha

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  26. You know, in my head, I can rationally think, "Well, clearly this anonymous person doesn't have a clue what she is talking about. Did she just skim Ellie's blog to look at the pictures?" but that didn't keep me from feeling sick to my stomach. I literally had to rest my forehead on my palm for a bit because such unkindness just knocks the breath out of me. But what matters, what remains, is that you are amazing. I know I keep saying that and also that - no matter our best intentions - none of us really know what you are going through. Well, you gave us an idea today but also of something bigger... of just not only the importance but the correctness (as we have all become so obsessed with 'incorrectness') of speaking up to set the matter straight. Merci and as Maxly wrote: Fight on.
    With much Love,
    Heather

    PS. My rambling email was sent before reading this post...
    PPS. In case you are reading this you Fat Fuck, Ellie sent me an email today to check up to see if I was feeling better from my cold. My cold. Not exactly snobby or snooty now, is that?

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  27. There may have been some harsh content in this post, but I love that even your cashmere sweaters say "fuck you." Mine would say the same exact same thing to that commenter. I absolutely love your blog.

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  28. Dear Ellie,
    I love you and your blog!!! I have learned so much from you and your enthusiasm for beautiful things. I click through all the links and study what you like about your style choices. You put it out there about your self. I especially like the section "what you don't know about me" and you share some more about yourself. You do it in a completely generous way. I feel sorry that you actually wasted some of your precious energy on the anonymous fat fuck, when you could be pointing us in the direction of better wall paper, tastier recipes, or bigger laughs at your adventures. I hope it feels good to call out callous insensitive losers, who, instead of taking time to be jealous of your eye for beauty, they should be out walking the streets giving away all their personal belongings and see if that solves any problems in the world.

    I wish you every happiness, I have thoroughly enjoyed every word of your blog. I am going to order your books, and your joie de vivre will live on and on.

    one thing you didn't know about me? I didn't even notice the donate button. oh well.

    with warmest aloha, Nancy Hesby

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  29. Dear Ellie, AMEN, AMEN, AMEN!!!
    Love and Prayers, Camille

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  30. Hi Ellie, I came over from Gardener's Cottage a few weeks ago. What FAT FUCK has clearly missed is that ALS doesn't discriminate between rich and poor, and neither does friendship, respect and goodness. My impression of you from this blog is a delightful person with a sharp wit, charm and a FAT as FUCK heart. And your love for your husband and your dear Gracie shines in it's strength and glory. In a sea of blog bullshit and pretense where followers grovel and wax poetic about the prettiness of homemade marshmallows and Anthropologie knock offs, I find you refreshing and fun, and honest and direct, funny as hell and compelling. You're kick ass and an ass kicker and I hope the closeted FAT FUCK is still stalking your blog and reads this post. Bless you and your beloved Gracie.

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  31. I feel like a pit bull at this moment! It crushes me to read the words of a person that doesn't know the first thing about the "real" Ellie and cowardly hides behind internet anonymity. No one asked but you are getting a first hand look into my relationship and experience with Ellie's journey. First, the ugly...

    Ellie is dying of a terminal illness. There is nothing glamorous, exciting, high end or luxurious about wasting away while your body betrays you and your mind stays sharp as a tack. Ellie can't move from the neck down however she feels everything. I ask you to sit for just 5 minutes and not move one muscle below your neck. Is your butt sore yet? Do you need to shift your weight just a half of an inch to the left? Do you want to reach for a sip of water? Do you see a piece of lint on your sweater you need to remove? Imagine now that this 5 minute pretend game is actually real and is for the rest of your life. Wait, it gets better...not only is this going to last the rest of your life, things are going to get worse, then you get to die. Oh and all of this happens pretty fast. Does one dollar or a thousand dollars in your bank account make this experience any easier?

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  32. Continued from last post...

    Ellie has a special gift for seeing the humor and beauty in the mundane. On one of our rare outings at a cafe, I see a wobbly chair in a corner covered in some ridiculous fabric. I secretly wonder if the chubby guy standing next to it is going to sit down. No way will it hold him!!! Ellie's thinking...The beechwood has been remarkably preserved and the cabriole legs that end in scroll feet are "Amaze Balls"!! Ellie knows that Informal, galante manners and a new half-reclining posture that replaced the former bolt-upright demeanor of court and aristocracy in the age of Louis XIV went hand-in-hand with new commodious seat furniture, developed in Paris about 1720. She has identified this as a Rococo chair upholstered à chassis, on removable frames secured by clips, so that changes from winter to summer furniture could be effected without recourse to the menuisier. She knows off-season upholstered frames were stored in the garde-meuble...AND that these early Louis XV chairs have backs upholstered à la reine, with the back in a flat panel that was ordinarily placed squared to the wall, so that the top-rails' curves complemented those of the boiseriepanels behind them. She also gets totally cracked up as we speculate the demise of the chair if the fat guy sits down.

    I have not a single clue what century that chair came from. I do know that for a nominal fee that Ballard Design delivers anywhere in the US. I also wonder where the damn waiter is with our red wine. No, I don't know the vineyard or the year. I perhaps know 6 French words, okay 2. Vin Rouge. I pronounce the "V", "N" and "R" just like every normal American. The waiter has zero clue what I'm saying. Ellie will laugh and politely translate what her desperately thirsty alcohol deprived American friend is trying to say. When the food arrives I see a salad with chicken in it. Ellie sees a nicely grilled and sliced skin-on half-breast of juicy chicken, tendered and beautifully cooked. Fresh lettuce, tasty dressing that's tossed moderately with the lettuce, served atop a few huge leaves of different colored lettuces.

    So my blog would say. "I met my friend at a cafe with crusty old furniture. I had salad and wine. There was a fat guy there too." End of my blog, I might have one follower (my mom) That's the beauty of Have Some Decorum!! Her readers enjoy her stories. Her writing transcends socially economic lines, personal taste, cultures, and is always funny. Ellie sees and appreciates what the rest of us often overlook. She shares the beauty of life through her eyes with her edgy hysterical wit. She's humble, real, raw, funny, sarcastic, and just plain fabulous.

    As for those concerned about the "Go Fund Me" linked to Ellie's blog. Let me say something Ellie won't say, their bank account isn't overflowing and they budget just like most of the rest of us. If you have an over abundance of money and are in a position to be charitable then donating would be fabulous. If you aren't in a position to donate, no worries. If you wish to judge and anonymously spew hatred about someone you don't even know that's terribly sad to me. A blog is a microscopic view into someone's real world. How dare any of us presume to know or understand the journey of another human being.

    God gave me a special gift a year and a half ago. That gift was the privilege of having Ellie O'Connell Decret in my life. She has changed my life in ways that I'll never be capable of articulating. I love her sweet Gracie and David.

    If anyone ever has ANYTHING negative to say again feel free to email me personally debbiepowens@gmail.com. Ellie doesn't deserve an ounce of bullshit from anyone!!! She's too busy staying alive and enjoying this time on earth!!!!! To the cruel person that said those horrible things to Ellie. "C U Next Tuesday!!!!!!!" Yes, I said it!!!

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    1. Debbie, the email did not work......is it powers instead of powens?
      GREAT COMMENT BY THE WAY..................REALLY GREAT!
      XX

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    2. Wow! No wonder she wrote a post about you...oh to be a fly on the wall during that café outing.

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    3. Hmmm....not sure why it wasn't working. debbiepowens@gmail.com

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    4. I think I love you too Debbie right along with Ellie..I was supposed to be in Paris a couple of wks ago & Ellie suggested we meet..I was honored & excited at the prospect of it but I became ill, had to have surgery & didnt think it was a good idea to leave the country...it really saddens me that it didnt happen..Jeannie B Kartis

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    5. Jeannie I'm sorry that i wasn't able to meet you!! I automatically love any friend of Ellie's!! I hope that you are recovering from your surgery, no fun around the holidays!! May 2015 bring you improved health and much happiness!!!

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    6. thanks Debbie.my recovery is going well..one more visit to surgeon& I should be able to get back to the gym..my consolation trip is West Palm next month to see my cousin sing at WP opera house since we missed him in Paris..happy new year ! ♡

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  33. Well done! I hope the fat fuck reads this! I cannot believe people take the time to write negative crap like that! She is obviously ignorant and miserable! I loved this post as I do every single one of your posts. I have no taste in decorating, I am not chic and I am too lazy and cheap to try and be, and not for one minute have I thought you were a snob. I always think to myself, wow! Love her style, love how much she is into decorating and her love of furniture and nice things. That is who you are and I am so not, but I love it all the more! I mean who doesn't like to enjoy someone for their different ways and who they are?? I guess an ignorant fat fuck! Anyway….Keep writing! don't let negative miserable people sway you in any way at all. Your writing is beautiful, raw, honest, heartfelt and hysterically FUNNY! Again than you for making my morning over here in California as I got to get on the computer, hit the refresh button and see yet another fabulous post! Cheers me up when I have to look at the nasty Italian mother in law glaring at me! Made me laugh!! Hope you a hanging in there in the French Alps! We want more of that story too! Have a nice night Ellie! For me I am about to begin my day and celebrate my birthday! Can't wait for the next post! xo

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  34. Ellie,
    I'm a new reader and admired your strength and courage along with your excellent taste. Now, I admire you even more. Wish I could send you a jelly donut from here (KY).
    Kisses,
    Gina

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  35. Here's something you don't know about me: You're with me all day long. When I want to scream at my daughter to clean her room, I give her a hug instead because I can. When I want to bitch about my session with the crazy client, I'm grateful because I can make money and drive over to get it. When I'm lonely (because 18-year olds are NEVER home), I'm grateful because I have a hard time just with my occasional housekeeper being in my face. When I feel like feeling sorry for myself, I give it a bit of time and then find something to laugh about (lately that's binge-reading your blog.)!
    You are the best *yoga* teacher I've ever had...and doing a fabulous job of keeping most of us from becoming tunnel-visioned fat fucks who can't read between the fucking lines.
    xoxoxo

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  36. I just cannot imagine the heart of Anonymous. Just cannot.

    I found you recently through the Contessa and had to visit every new post. I've passed word of your blog on to dear friends, first reading to yank my priorities into proper order, then falling in love with your sassy character, and recently spending chunks of time with your oldest posts, enjoying them as if walking through a hall of beauty. For me, just seeing beautiful things makes them a part of me. I don't have to own them to posses them.

    So I do live vicariously in your shoes of beautiful things even though I can't begin to imagine truly walking in them.

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  37. Marvelous counter punch, Ellie! You continue to amuse and inspire me with every post, regardless of the topic. You have become a role model for this 60-ish woman on how to live life well, despite our circumstances. Something that the Fat Fuck knows nothing of..
    A very happy New Year to you and yours.
    xoxo
    Joanne

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  38. Ellie, I love your blog, love your funny and poignant writing. Fat Fuck should go straight to Hell. Fat Fuck should not be allowed, even by the grace of God, to stop in Purgatory. Praying for you and yours!

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  39. You go, girl! I have never thought of you as a snob but rathr as someone who loves beautiful things and has a lot of knowledge about said things - dishes, furniture, houses, flats, clothing, etc. You are an amazing woman and I am enchanted by your blog. I am very sorry that your family has behaved so poorly but God loves you and so do all of your "girlfriends."

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  40. Ellie, you are my hero. YOU are my hero! Thank you for your honesty.......Janie

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  41. After trying to catch up with reading your recent posts since last week is a blur I see today's post. WTF?? Miss Fat Fuck (ooh, that feels good to type!) obviously doesn't "get" you and that's unfortunate for her because yours are the most genuine, funny, amusing posts EVER! Oh well, her loss. You keep on keepin' on. We love you! Can't wait for your next one!

    xox Janice

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  42. Good Lord! I am always amazed at how some people (and funny how they mostly have the same name, Anonymous) feel compelled to rain garbage on someone's personal blog. Clearly these people , the tribe of Anonymous, don't realize that the garbage falls back on them as readers wonder what kind of sad piece of humanity thinks it's OK to be mean and hateful. At least be glad they are only spewing trash in electrons; think of the poor slobs who have to deal with them in real life! Onward and upward, dear brave one- haters gonna hate !

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  43. Brava. I can see why you wanted to call the FF out, but please do not spend too much of your very precious time on the ignorant. So often they are determined to stay that way. I can't wait to read your book! Also, love the chicken picture. Also, loving the current "cooking the classics" series - I'm going to make all of them.

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  44. But how do you know she is fat?
    Sheila

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    1. Hi Sheila. I don't know if she is fat. I don't care if she is fat. Calling someone a fat fuck is just a phrase. It doesn't mean that she's really fat. I don't care if someone is fat, skinny, ugly or pretty. I care if people have integrity.

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    2. Because why, Debbie? What that person wrote is very wrong, uneducated, and just disdainful. But I also don't get the ridicule of the fat man and wondering if he would break the chair or not. Can't we all be more accepting of others, please?
      Diane

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    3. Diane, with all due respect, this post is about something else and so are the responses. "Fat Fuck" is just a phrase. And I personally don't want to be more accepting of someone like Anonymous. I still get so upset every time that I think about it.

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  45. Yay, Ellie!!!! So proud of you. Hugs from the West (best) coast. XOXO - Kelie

    (only posting as anon because I can't figure out my Google login!)

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  46. So well said! Fat fuck should be ashamed!

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  47. Ellie: Bravo I don't know you but have reading your blog ever since your entry about the ALS Ice Bucket challenge. I agreed with you completely on that as my best friend died of ALS and what they needed most was help at home. No one realizes that until you go thru the disease. We had set up a foundation for Claire so she could have care and make great memories. I am so happy you get out you deserve it.

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  48. Dear Ellie, way to go and love that fighting spirit of yours. You have my utmost admiration for speaking up and defending your dignity and honor. To paraphrase an oft said adage "don't judge unless you've walked in someone else's shoes". xx Amelia

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  49. I have never understood what compels people to leave the nasty and usually anonymous comments that I often see on blogs. I just don't get it. I am glad you took the opportunity to say your piece in response.

    Like one reader commented above, you have been a source of great inspiration to me this past month since I found you. Whenever life throws me a new punch (and there have been quite a few of them recently) I often think of you, your fabulous attitude in dealing with ALS and life in general, and am able to tell myself to get over it and just do what I need to do to fix things. Thank you, thank you for sharing so much of yourself. I hope you realize just how much you have helped so many of us with your writing.

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  50. Nooooooo Ellie, noooooo! Please don't waste another precious breath on this sad and bitter person. I am so sorry that you felt hurt and frustrated by those mean spirited comments. You are adorable, and much adored xxx PS My name is Eleanor, my friends call me Ellie but I spell it Elle cause I think it's more sophisticated...since discovering you I'm reconsidering the spelling!

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  51. What an ignoramus that 'anonymous' creature is. Who the heck can dare to judge if they haven't walked in another's shoes. There will always be haters. If I were Janet I would have just deleted the post. Why try to reason with such a 'fat fuck'. Right on, Ellie! I love you!!!

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  52. Ellie, bless you. Bless your fight, and the gift you share with us all. With thanks, and hope, Amy

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  53. And this post, dear Ellie, is exactly why you are my new BFF !! You go girl! Look at all the wonderful comments you got. You are truly loved!! Everybody gets nasty comments. Don't be sad and let it get to you. You are the best!!! I live for your clever, raw, funny posts. Xxxxxx

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  54. BRAVA!!!!!! Your honesty is so absolutely beautiful.
    -Kate

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  55. Ellie,
    There is an army of supporters behind you. Reading all these lovely comments, we are standing up to the "bully" in the playground. I too am motivated not to be a slacker, when I think of how graciously you live, despite the horrific ALS.
    Do not read anything so mean spirited, it is just not worthy of your time.
    Love, Alex

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  56. Fuck her. ALS is a terrible disease you wouldn't even wish on this ignorant bitch. You are amazing and please don't give another thought to a disgrace who compares ALS to Ebola,

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  57. What an ass, how dare someone insult you without knowing a thing about you or your life. Some people lack so much common sense and compassion it is disgusting!! It is just like you said Ellie they are nothing but 'fat fucks'! Love you and your blog and read it faithfully and I hope you don't let those people get to you anymore they are losers with no life of their own who find it necessary to insult and hurt others.

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  58. Ellie, you are my hero. Best wishes for you in 2015.

    Wendy

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  59. Ever since I found you via The Gardener's Cottage I have devoured your every post. I LOVE your insight, humor, and wit. Oh to be your friend! And how lucky are you that your friend Debbie's got your back?! Love her too! Brava to you for calling out FF. She/he is a sad individual. I can't even imagine your life... Just know that so many people - many of whom have never met you - have also got your back and love the person that you are. Looking forward to your next post... -Denise

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  60. WELL that does it for me! No doubt about it I'm 100% behind you. You go girl! Write what ever you like, it's your blog. I'm just along for the ride.

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  61. Get'em tiger! Way to go Ellie! She has no idea what she's talking about. I'm totally amazed that you can keep your sense of humor. Your Bunny post was so moving. David is a gem.

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  62. Bravo Ellie so well said. I am a newbie to your blog from Australia via the lovely Faux Fuchsia. I admire your guts and determination and envy your brilliant writing talent. Thank God you have David and Grace in your life. Bless you all. Keep on keeping on sweetie. I know you don't set out to be an inspiration but you just can't help yourself!!!!

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  63. I stand in unity with the others here against Fat F**k Face. Diane W.

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  64. I stand in unity with the others here against Fat F**k Face. Diane W.

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  65. Ellie, I love your writing style, admire your honesty, and appreciate your eye for detail. Your posts crack me up and make me wince at the same time. You have put a face on ALS and I have thought about you every day since I discovered your blog a few months ago. And OMG, where did you find that photo of a fat fuck? Too funny! xoxo Susan Jacobson

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  66. Good for you, Ellie.... telling that disgusting, ignorant piece of fat shit what she needed to hear!!!
    Love you so much for who you are.. classy, intelligent, and it is always a delight to read your posts!! XOXO

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  67. Dearest beautiful,funny,lovable and intelligent Ellie,
    I adore you. Please do not waste another moment thinking of the bitter,twisted person hiding behind their computer. Love and blessings to you,David and Gracie. Katrina xxx

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  68. So sorry you needed to write this Ellie. As someone above said - don't judge unless you have walked in someone else's shoes, unfortunately there are cowardly Fat Fucks everywhere. All the best, Leigh x

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  69. I adore you for speaking your mind as your ALS is beyond my comprehension. I admire you for your good taste. I have a hard working life, spend more than I should on travel, and regret nothing. For there is one motto: "The only real elegance is in the mind; if you've got that, the rest really comes from it." -Diana Vreeland

    Sing on sister and I agree - what a Fat Fuck for not understanding brilliant taste!
    All my best - Stephanie Clift, Shanghai, Dallas and the world

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  70. Dearest Ellie, I do hope you feel better having gotten that off your chest. That person represents the worst of the internet...luckily, as you recognize, she is a coward. But you are not. And I love (and miss) Dunkin Donuts, too!

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  71. Dear Ellie, I noted the comments by ANONYMOUS who clearly has no concept of the tragedy of ALS. I live in India and every day I see people deprived of the most basic care. I witness children with little food unable to develop and grow. It is a very difficult environment in which to live. They, like YOU are worthy of much better conditions. Nobody could justify saying what was said about you, so very very misguided.... Best wishes Ana

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  72. That person was very silly. You need to feel sorry for her, really.
    You on the other hand - just want to come to Paris and give you a huge hug and talk and laugh with you, and your daughter, and Bunny.
    Love you Ellie xxx

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  73. Sorry Ellie one more thing.
    When is your birthday please?
    xxx

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  74. Only ever be an anonymous lover... never a hater!

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  75. Dear Ellie, I am so sorry that you had to waste one breath and one precious moment responding to this ignorant and cruel person.
    All the money and comforts in the world would not obviate the fact that you have a terrible disease that makes your every day of living a challenge. But live you do with such dignity and passion. You have instilled in me such an appreciation for life and for enjoying every breath that we take. I had been feeling sort of blue during the holidays, I read today's post and realized that I had no right to feel anything but gratitude.
    I do not know why this horrible disease chose you, sometimes I think that you were chosen because you can bear it, you are strong, you are classy, you are educated and you have an amazing husband and daughter - you can take on ALS! And you do every day and you share with us the beauty in your life and the struggles that you face every day for things that we take for granted. I applaude you and I adore you. I look forward to meeting you in April in Paris, I have found myself looking forward to meeting you more than the trip itself!
    And the fat fuck and go and just fuck herself or himself, clearly a coward who feels that he or she has the right to judge someone anonymously.
    May there be a lot of light shinning upon you today, we all love you and say fuck your to the fat fuck!
    Lourdes

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  76. I hope Gracie inherited your wit, fire, fortitude, sense of humor, love of beauty and your grace. I hope Gracie knows how your blog moves so many strangers, including me. Thank you for putting it all out there for us, every single word. A special thanks for using one of my favorite phrases, "fat fuck", so successfully and so many times in one piece.
    Sending peace and love, Robbi from Pittsburgh, PA

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  77. Bravery is the most elegant thing imaginable. And you my dear are living proof that even in this hard, cruel world, some rise above all of it's challenges. Thank you for being an inspiration.

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  78. Oh Ellie, I totally love you. I'm so sorry for all that you're having to go through. Big hugs to you, Bunny, and Gracie.

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  79. Well done! In Yiddush, zi iz a baleboste iber a heyptl kroyt. She's the proprietress of a head of cabbage! Phooey on that one.
    xoxoxo Fifi

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  80. I almost didn't add my comment because it is redundant. I, along with so many, think you are wonderful. I understand that the point of writing a blog is to share your point of view and discuss things that others will want to read. This generally means writing about witty, happy, pretty things and not the messier, unpleasant parts of our lives.

    You generously let us into your life and share parts of both. We keep coming back because even when you write about the unpleasant parts, you write with such clarity of voice and inherent wit that it is like sitting with a good friend and being their strength.

    Keep writing, keep sharing and keep telling haters that you just don't care about the poison they spew.

    I am grateful for every day I can read a new post from you.

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  81. I look forward to your blog each day.Despite the difficulty of your life, you bring joy to mine. I just donated to your page, and only wish I could do more. Keep on being real.

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  82. I can't tell you how much I love the term fat fuck. You're the best!

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  83. "My cashmere sweaters have a message for you… Go fuck yourself." Love it! Thank you for my morning's laugh out loud moment. Anonymous obviously lives a very small life and apparently has never walked a mile in anyone's shoes. Touché to you for putting that out there.

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  84. You know, I never noticed the "Donate" button on your blog, BUT, I have noticed them on other people's blogs and have often donated. I feel I am paying them for their work - which is writing a blog and giving me information, laughter, etc.

    Why shouldn't you be paid for the work you do? It's that simple. It's NOT charity.

    Jill Meyer in Santa Fe.

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  85. 'Fuck Face', Your lack of compassion makes you poor indeed.

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  86. I am so sorry this had such an effect on you but am so happy you have so much love and support!!!
    I love and admire you so much and look forward to each and every posting!
    God Bless you Ellie :)
    XO
    Therese

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  87. Don't waste your energy on losers like that jealous woman. I have never before been so entertained ( and learned!) so much from a blog. When I see a new post in my inbox It makes my day!!! Love love your taste, you're joie de vivre, and your sincerity. Gracie is very lucky to have you as her mom. BTW, I thought the donate button was for ALS research! Always sending prayers your way.

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  88. Dear Ellie,
    Your faithful readers will never abandon you and your words will never abandon us. Thank you for improving the human scene. I love you beyond measure. Your words are so delicious they are edible! God Bless you and yours, Susan

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  89. Ellie, I was on a NYC subway yesterday when I saw you had a new blog posting and honestly, between the distractions on the subway and my eagerness to move on to your reply, I missed a lot of what Fat Fuck had to say but your reply had me in hysterics! I love your honesty, your openness, your truly funny blogs, your courage--everything I respect in a girl. I always tell my son all he has to do is be the best version of him he possibly can. You have so nailed being the best Ellie you possibly can. You just keep letting that little light shine, girl. Thanks for being you!

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  90. GO GIRL!!!
    I think that you are speaking for all of us who struggle in this adventure called life. All of us who, for whatever reason, don't fit in a pretty box that can be labeled and shelved. Those of us who, above all, remain true to ourselves and our paths.
    Unfortunately, there is more than one "FAT Fuck" in this world. But the Great Friends and Lovers and Children far outnumber the small minded ego-centric who clamor for attention and love to blame, making stupid assumptions and then proceeding as if the assumptions were fact.
    GO GIRL!!! Lift your voice for all of us.
    Thank you, thank you, thank you!!
    Mary

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  91. Brutal honesty is rarely appreciated. I appreciate yours. People like "anonymous" just don't get it, and live their lives in the shadows like Gollum. Stay true, stay beautiful. xob

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  92. YOU GO GIRL!!! Sometimes we can't please everyone. They're not worth it anyway. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! You're a keeper for a long time to come.
    David
    NYC

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  93. The perfect response (not that anonymous warrants one but I would feel compelled to reply too!) - I think her response was formed out of envy and ignorance... and now you can move onto your cashmere collection, gilded mirrors, and jelly donuts. Who gives a Fat F--- about the haters... you have an enormous amount of people who care, love and pray for you every day (many of whom, have never met you... like myself)!

    I am praying for you: anxiety-free days, and days filled with spring sunshine in Paris this next year... Xo

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  94. At first glance, I thought your post was about a Duck Fat recipe gone awry, or on another "what the fuck" thing sitting on top of the pink lamb, turkey. Sadly, it was worse than that and I'm sorry you had to exert one precious ounce of energy on that negative comment. However, I totally understand and respect your indomitable courage in setting the record straight. XO

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  95. Dear Ellie,
    Fat Fuck is a blip on the screen of humanity.
    You live in our hearts every day
    and always will.
    xo

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  96. Ellie I love you! You are so brave and funny and you are a beautiful human, bless you Darling and thank you for this blog.xox

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  97. Dear Ellie, you made my heart grow 3 sizes. (We watched How The Grinch Stole Christmas 8 times recently.) It’s my belief that not only is Anonymous a fat fuck, but she is also green.
    Love,
    Marly

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  98. Oh Ellie, I am touched by your blog today. To all the ignorant people in the world who write hurtful comments. GET A LIFE! Read a book and educate yourselves so that you may learn some compassion because you obviously weren't born with any or choose to have none!
    Suzana from Australia

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  99. WOW, I couldn't have told anonymous off any better. Loved your response, and please don't let the "Bastards" get you down. Love ya, Bonnie in cold white snowy Wisconsin.

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  100. Oh HELL YES. I read that nasty comment on The Gardener's Cottage (which is how I found your blog, by the way, and I have read every single entry) and it upset me so much I spent a week complaining about it to my husband. I thought seriously about replying to the comment, but then I decided that is Janet's space and I didn't want to start an ugly fight on her blog. What a sad, sorry human Madame Anonymous must be. Everything you are shines through here, and I for one am happy to have gotten the chance to "know" you, even if only through your blog.

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  101. BRILLIANT ! As always . Love you , Adrienne

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  102. You go, Ellie. FF is an idiot and YOU are fabulous. Why anyone chooses to write negative comments on anyone’s blog is beyond me - just don’t read it, idiots. You are an inspiration and bring happiness, joy and more than a few laughs to so many people all while enduring unimaginable hardship. I just spent the morning (indulgently) in bed reading your Thanksgiving and Christmas books cover to cover. Brilliant. It saddens me to learn that your family members have not shown up for you when you need them the most. Regardless, you write lovingly of them in your books. I can’t tell you how I look forward to seeing the email alerts for your latest blog posts pop into my mailbox. Blessing to you, Gracie and David. I’m going donate now, so FU Anonymous - idiot. xoxo Juliet

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  103. Your donation page seems to be down. I hope it’s not because of what that idiot, FF, said.

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  104. Your body may be paralyzed, but your voice is the most powerful thing I have ever read.
    Happy New Year sweet Ellie.
    Cindy F
    xx

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  105. Great post! Thank you.
    I'm so grateful for your blog.
    Happy New Year to you, your good family, and Debbie too.
    Signed, Fan Club Member, # umpteen zillion....

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  106. I spent days angry over the stupidity of that anonymous comment on Janet's blog and I knew at some point you might read it and that it was what upset me- I just didn't want you to know that anyone that small, nasty and petty existed in the world. But I also knew if you wrote about it, it would be pitch perfect. And it is.
    I just love you.

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  107. Anonymous deserves to be called out on this. Totally bad form, not nice and being mean spirited just doesn't make it. Sadly, anonymous has chosen to be judgmental and bitter.
    As for me, I can imagine hanging out with you Ellie and would love to have the pleasure of meeting you. It's your blog keep on being you.

    Elle from NYC

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  108. don't hate the haters . pity them for their ignorance. love you ellie!!!!

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  109. Dear Anonymous (AKA Fat Fuck, AKA FF). How dare you! Yes, you read it right. How dare you let your cup of verbal venom spill on the spirit of Eleanor O’Connell, AKA Ellie!! This is a human being first, living her life under massive health constraints, with a willingness to share parts of her life with “US”, AKA people who likely have never met her. We follow Ellie because she brings a sprinkling of goodness to our lives, evokes beneficial introspection and shares adventures and tidbits of her world that we have never experienced - yet she asks nothing from us in return. FYI – I’ll get to the donation page shortly.
    You hurt Ellie deeply, and hurt US, by alluding that she has adequate funding to manage her massive medical needs. You challenged her financial arena with invalidated statements, with enough key words that suggest you are belong to a class of people with liberal community organizer, (AKA LCO) mentality. I may be wrong in this assumption, but don’t have enough evidence to feel otherwise. Ellie lives her life with many luxuries, i.e., her daughter, her husband, her friends (known and unknown), a visit to the Louvre, a recipe, fabrics, flea markets, lake visits, and antique butter dish, and so on. Do you, FF, incorporate any of these as luxuries in your life?
    You challenge a “donation” page set up by caring “US” people, and assume luxuries are a way of life for Ellie. The underlying innuendo is typical of LCO theme of wealth redistribution. Responding to her financial donation page is a choice, LCO’s demand financial “donations” without choice.
    I do not see that you have offered an apology to Ellie, and to US, for your acerbic posting on The Gardener’s Cottage blog. How dare you, FF. Yes, you read it right. How dare you be so hateful, and not have heart enough to offer up a simple statement – I am sorry.
    I ask one thing of you. The next time you are inclined to spit out venomous thoughts, pause and think about the impact your words will have, maybe count to ten, and ask yourself if your comment is of value, who may be hurt, will it make a positive difference, and will the world be at risk if you say nothing at all. Please, other than an apology, which would be appropriate, please do not write anything further to elicit pain and anxiety for my friend Ellie. I love her, respect her, worry for her, and pray for her. She is my friend and a friend to US.

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  110. I have not yet been able to put into words all that you offer in your blog, but the bottom line is that it is life affirming in unique and true ways. I have nothing but pity for a reader who could not see that...and fury that s/he hurt you. Your response is spot on. Love, Leslie

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  111. This post is exactly why I love you AND your blog!!!!!

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  112. So Fabulous! I hope (no, I know) you are feeling all the love and support, Ellie. I just met you and I was indignant when I read FF's comment. I love your spirit. Looking forward to reading your next post. Happiest of New Year's to you and your family.

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  113. I found you via the gardeners cottage. I love the term fat fuck, fat fucker, fat fuckeraroo...The person that posted is obviously ignorant in the ways of your illness. I hope you feel better now, try not to let it get under your skin, that was their intent. jeanne

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  114. Ellie, we have never met, but I read every essay you post. I can truly say I love you and am a better person for having found you and your blog. Let the fat fucks of this world wallow in their self-proclaimed "high ground of ignorance"! Merry Christmas......Happy New Year, dear one! Angela Muller

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  115. OMG, this is absolutely hilarious on YOUR part, Ellie; of course, it's absolutely appalling on Fat Fuck's part! I've just recently found your blog and wanted to write you after the very first post that I read. I didn't only because I was so overcome with emotion about your medical situation that I hardly knew what to say. Oh my Dear girl, (I'm almost 70 so I feel I can call you that) I wish there were SOMETHING someone could do to help you. Dammit, life isn't fair. On the other hand, my God, look at you! Writing these brilliant, funny pieces so full of life. You have amazing courage, strength, fortitude (oh, same thing as strength but sounds even stronger, ha ha), sensitivity and grace. I am in awe. Truly. What a beautiful person you are. Actually, I'm glad you wrote back to Fat Fuck because you gave us a hilarious piece of writing. Of course, I just wish you hadn't been hurt by her vile words. You know, I kind of picture her more like Cruella de Ville - the fur loving villainess who would be cruel to 101 dalmations!! Anyway, more later. Just wanted to say this much for now. I'm sitting in a hospital bed writing this but I'm now grateful to be able to get up to use the bathroom and reach the drink on the bedside table beside me. Much love to you, Dear. I'll be thinking of you.....and looking forward to reading more of your wonderful, wonderful blogs. I laughed out loud at this one!!!

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  116. Ellie,
    My thoughts echo all the support and love expressed so eloquently by all who have commented about this.
    Xx, Catherine

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  117. Hi Ellie,
    I'm Judy and found you through The Gardeners Cottage. This is my second time commenting on a blog. The first time was on Dec. 18th when I read those horrible comments on Janet's blog and told Janet that after reading your blog I realized that I need to be more thankful! I signed my comment to her annon but now I realize the importance of signing my name!
    I wish you and your family a Very Happy New Year!
    Judy

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  118. Bravo! On wards and Upwards to you in 2015, Ellie!

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  119. You should not have wasted your time. You should have written another blog post, so that those that love your stories could have enjoyed.
    That being said, I hope anon feels a mistake was made and is apologetic, if not, more power to you for at least trying to show her the error of anon's ways. You are a bigger person.

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  120. I'm so sorry anyone made you feel so awful. You don't deserve that. Bravo for defending yourself, I know if it was me I wouldn't have felt better until I got it off my chest too and done just what you did.

    Praying for you and your beautiful family from Indiana, USA <3

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  121. Well, I don't understand mean and I don't understand rude and I sure don't understand anonymous. What I do understand is that you are making the most of every minute you have with the ones you love and are also willing to share your insights with all of us who love to read your blog. You hang in there Ellie and I am hoping for 2015 to bring you blessings beyond compare. Happy New Year!

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  122. Dear Ellie,
    This is hard for me to write because I feel so sorry about all you are going through with your illness. I am happy for you that you got to go to Ralph Lauren's Restaurant and Chanel's apartment 'cause I would really enjoy going there too. I also admire and love the fact that you don't take no crap from no one! After reading much of your blog, I had the courage to say a few things to some people that needed saying and it felt good to get it off my chest. I too came here from the Gardener's Cottage. I am praying to Jesus for a miracle for you. I had a miracle happen to me once when my children were small. I put it in Jesus hands. I wish I could hug you. You are a great human being.
    Sincerely,
    Debra F. from Southeastern, NC, USA

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  123. Ellie, you are amazing and FF is just to be pitied. I don't understand why someone had to write so negatively, if you don't like a blog you can simply not visit it again, not follow it and move on. your posts bring lot of fun and joy to many people, something FF appears not to appreciate or understand. Just because your friends have set up a donate page on your site doesn't mean you have to eats beans and old stale bread. You go on as you have been, we have your back. XX

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  124. I enjoyed this post so much. What a lesson, you've humbled us all.
    Thank you!

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  125. Enough said..........you killed it! Well done xx

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  126. Dear Ellie,
    Bravo to you. You put everything in perspective, and you cannot believe how I appreciate you for this. You have a combination of dignity and humor, that I can only hope to aspire to. I so look up to you.As said, we have your back. Way to go, girl1 We are lucky to have "your voice". Thanks so much, Robin in Umbria

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  127. TOUCHE' Ellie, no man knows what another man suffers ~ much love to you Ellie ~
    I feel so blessed to have found your blog ~ XOXO

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  128. I want a cashmere sweater with "you fat fuck" on the back- put that on your "go fund yourself" box and We'll all stand united around you.
    Haters gonna Hate but you know - you have a "posse" of fans and fighters cheering you on. I want to throw doughnuts at anonymous downers.
    XO
    PvE/pvedesign

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  129. Hear Hear all the way from Sweden!! //Charlotte

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  130. You are awesome, beautiful, and inspiring...sending so many prayers your way. xoxo,
    Laura

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  131. 'Luxury is a spiritual necessity.' Coco Chanel
    And for a person in your predicament I'd say you have a need, a very huge one. That someone begrudges you this simple joy, when you are coping with ALS is beyond shabby. Let them walk (sit in a wheelchair) one day in your shoes, and let's see what they'll have rage gumption to write after that. I bet you the farm that they could not handle it, and specifically not with your charm, grace, wit, honesty and grit. It's so easy to judge. But it's so difficult to have an open heart and spirit for some. You inspire, you make us all appreciate what we have, you raise a child inspire of gargantuan obstacles, and you do it with an eye to the good things. In short: you are amazing

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